I don't know why, but for some reason, this whole situation is really bothering me a lot more than I thought it would/a lot more than it probably should. I didn't sleep well last night because I kept thinking about this and I couldn't get it off my mind at work today. No, I didn't know her IRL, but inside, part of me feels like I did "know" her (now I don't know what I know). She was my blog friend. She's part of the reason why I started my blog and she's been nothing but supportive of me and my blog since the beginning. I emailed her for advice and she always responded quickly and with the kindest words. She helped me find Anthro clothes that I was looking for (told me which stores in her area might have them). We talked on Twitter. She left the nicest comments. I know some people (like my husband) think it's crazy to call these people "blog friends", but it's true. You really do form some sort of bond with these people.
I keep thinking things like "This has to be a mistake.", "No, not her, are you kidding me?", "I must be dreaming.", "Why would she do this?", "How did this happen?", "What happened to the person who I just talked to a few days ago?"...It's all running through my head and I'm still so confused. I know the facts are out there. I've read them all, but it's like part of my brain still refuses to believe that they could be true. I guess I'm just still in shock.
I also don't know what happens next. Is she coming back? What will it be like if she doesn't? How will people respond if she does? Can we be "blog friends" ever again? Do I stop reading or read with caution? Do I forgive and not forget? Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me...
I'm aware that this post is a jumbled mess and probably makes no sense to some of you, but that's ok. I needed to get this out there for me. I'm hoping that talking about it will help and I hope that I can eventually wrap my brain around this and move on.
*I want everyone out there who was lied to/stolen from to know that I do not condone her behavior. If someone stole from me, I would want them to be punished, so of course, I think she should have to deal with the consequences of her actions. I really hope that all of you get back what was taken from you and that you can finally move past this horrible situation.